f.r.e.d

I don’t know where to begin.

The past 3 weeks (has it been 3?!) has been a blur. Or should i say a life in fast-forward mode. Maybe a nightmare that lasted too long would be more apt.

I should have seen it coming, i suppose. Before i’d even started work, my supervisor already texted me to “ask for my opinion” about a work issue. And she’d requested for me to start work on Fri, after the Deepavali hol, instead of the Mon after.

But the first hint of real trouble came on my very first day of work, when i had to stay back an hour after knock-off time. Then it was that i had to buy food back instead of a leisurely hour-long lunch. Then it became working till about 10pm for 3 consecutive nights.

And all this happened during my first week of work.

I’m not proud of this, but i finally threw the letter after just 10 working days. It could have been 8, if not for the fact i held back due to an event i was managing. It bugged me very much that i’d be perceived as one who caved after 2 weeks of work. But it also bugged me that if i didn’t quit i wouldn’t be cutting my losses short.

What do i mean? I think at this point in my life, i want to have a life outside of work. I’m not lazy, but i think there are better things to do than to slog it out in the office and feel shitty about going in to work in the mornings. I want quality, not quantity, in terms of work output. And even though i work in a team, i want autonomy and control over my work, not just be a puppet or runner.

There are more reasons to why i’ve chosen to leave, of course. Ask me about it if you’re interested… there are some things that are just inconvenient to blog about.

The ironic part of my short-lived employment is that i’m actually serving more than a month of notice, again at the request of my supervisor. (Haa, i’ve been told that i’m “very nice”.)

But it’s all good. Now, another new beginning to look forward to.